"Procrastination has become its own solution—a tool I can use to push myself so close to disaster that I become terrified and flee towards success. A more troubling matter is the day-to-day activities that don’t have massive consequences when I neglect to do them." — hyperboleandahalf
I’ve been reading Allie Brosh’s book this week, and it’s like she can see inside my brain. And also my room, which is both scary and embarrassing. But still not shame-inducing enough to make me want to fix the problem.
This is something I honestly struggle with on a daily basis. Motivation via self-shame can work, but it’s not a real solution. I have yet to find one. That last line in the comic above is so the way I think, it’s almost shocking, even to me. "I don’t want to do anything more than I don’t want to hate myself."